In any case, just want to start off by saying that I really feel exhausted by the stuff going on in my life. I do love my current job at UOB, I have finally started to learn the guitar earlier this year in June, and I have actually decide to do my Grade 1 exams, which will be somewhere in June (date TBC), and I actually go for some stuff like volunteering and stuff. Amidst all these, I feel tired. I feel so tired, lonely, and really scared.

Those close to me know that I lost a friend I cherished, a friend I had feelings for for 2 years. And because of what he decided to do, we stopped talking. I don't know what he truly think anymore, and he became a stranger. Maybe I never knew him like I thought I did. Or maybe i am denying what I know he was like because I have loved him deep. Ever since he decided we should separate 4 days after asking me to be attached, after he left, i felt like a big part of me left with him. It felt like my whole world crumbled, it hurt so bad I wish there was a type of panadol that would ease the pain.

Yes, now I am living my life to the fullest. I am doing what I really want to do like learning the guitar. Going for Grading exams. Things I would never have done if I were still hanging out with him. But at the same time, I feel lonely and empty. It feels like no one understands me anymore, no one whom could see me and know when I am feeling tired or angry, happy or sad. There is no one who is willing to walk in to my life and take an effort to know me, to be my support like how I would be his or hers. And I live in fear, because even though I have manage to fight and win against the depression I got when he left, I fear I may fall into depression again for forcing myself to hard to get over the sadness of his departure. If it were to happen again, this time, I may not win. 

"What happened to the tomorrow that was meant for us?"

In any case, just want to start off by saying that I really feel exhausted by the stuff going on in my life. I do love my current job at UOB, I have finally started to learn the guitar earlier this year in June, and I have actually decide to do my Grade 1 exams, which will be somewhere in June (date TBC), and I actually go for some stuff like volunteering and stuff. Amidst all these, I feel tired. I feel so tired, lonely, and really scared.

Those close to me know that I lost a friend I cherished, a friend I had feelings for for 2 years. And because of what he decided to do, we stopped talking. I don't know what he truly think anymore, and he became a stranger. Maybe I never knew him like I thought I did. Or maybe i am denying what I know he was like because I have loved him deep. Ever since he decided we should separate 4 days after asking me to be attached, after he left, i felt like a big part of me left with him. It felt like my whole world crumbled, it hurt so bad I wish there was a type of panadol that would ease the pain.

Yes, now I am living my life to the fullest. I am doing what I really want to do like learning the guitar. Going for Grading exams. Things I would never have done if I were still hanging out with him. But at the same time, I feel lonely and empty. It feels like no one understands me anymore, no one whom could see me and know when I am feeling tired or angry, happy or sad. There is no one who is willing to walk in to my life and take an effort to know me, to be my support like how I would be his or hers. And I live in fear, because even though I have manage to fight and win against the depression I got when he left, I fear I may fall into depression again for forcing myself to hard to get over the sadness of his departure. If it were to happen again, this time, I may not win. 

"What happened to the tomorrow that was meant for us?"